
OK... let me scan through my list of things and assignments i need to complete by 14 September...
- Study for General Paper examination
- Study for Mathematics test
- Study for Mother Tongue examination
- Study for International History test
- Overdue Assignments: physic w.s., maths reflection, Project Work-Written Report draft (2), Chinese Essay and exercise
- General Paper holiday assignment-worksheet
- Economics holiday Project-education
- Maths holiday assignment x2
- History: IH Essay, SEA Essay, IH & SEA file check
Well, it can't be helped that i've so much to be completed. Seems like it'll keep me rather busy during the holidays. (*Sigh...)
Amidst of all the things i found myself swearing and cursing about, at least the guy whom used to follow me about is off my trail! (^^) A little bit of strategic outcries at prominent locations in front of others is all it took to make him think twice about his actions. Hahas, I'm sorry if I'm sadistic but I feel I took some pleasure out of all this. Take that!
Oh yeah, I finally got down with a fever and got a three-day MC! Yipee! I've since recovered so no H1N1 okay. The point is it's the perfect situation whereas I can have more time to sleep and complete my work that I have been craving for the entire school year! I still have a sore throat that is still bothering me though, but it's worth everything!
Also, I find myself missing playing the clarinet every now and then. To even catch a glimpse of it, be it when the college band people playing it or Squidward playing it during a telecast of Spongebob Squarepants, would make me reminisce all those memorable moments in the school band. Although I did not really like the idea of committing so much of my secondary school time on the instrument at first, it's also the reason why I could learn in the first place. I mean, look around you and see how many could even play an musical instrument properly? The ability to play it is my pride and love, and I can proudly say now that I'd never regretted joining my school band...
Everything is gonna get pretty tough once the holidays end, with the promotions exercise creeping near, but I think I'll survive. After going through all of what the college threw at me since late February, what's to freak up over? If I succeed it's a miracle, if I fail then I had it coming for a long time... What's the worry?
My only true worry is whether I should stay on in college. Yes, I know I'd hated the place ever since I enrolled in it, but I cannot deny I'd learnt plenty and achieved a more mature perspective on the world which is undoubted precious. The world is a harsh arena whereas the weak cannot survive. How sure can I be that enrolling in a polytechnic would assure me with better prospects than I could get from a college? It'll take me a huge leap of faith to transfer out which could cost me big if I fail again. Moreover, another obstacle would be persuading my stubborn father whom I've not communicated with for so long. You could say we're having an icy 'cold war' which I've no idea when it started. Currently, I'm perfectly comfortable with the 'cold war' as it gives me a peace of mind that at least the next moment would not erupt into another heated violent argument.
Hi y'all! I know it's been really long since I’ve last posted but I’ve been really busy lately that I could not even afford to sleep sometimes!
Where to start? Hmm...
Well, for starters, I've passed one of my physics test lately and it's my best achievement for that subject so far! To the extent that my teacher comment on it and encouraged me to keep it up and I would succeed. However, the comment only sank my sprits because she said that just before another test that I did not study properly for.
Bottom line: I failed... badly.
So much for the encouragement...
Oh yes, of course! The college PE department finally found out that I skipped the single group PE lessons and made me attend make-up PE to make for every session I’ve missed. I've to reach school early before assembly starts for three consecutive days per week and complete at least 2.4 Km run and three sets of exercise in limited timing. It's not so bad actually because on paper, I'd skipped only 4 sessions but in reality, I'd actually skipped all of it since the start of the year! (All thanks to the previously teacher who transferred out...)
My teacher has also been putting a lot of pressure on our Project Work and it's evident in the stress my classmates has been experiencing lately. My Project Work group consist of 4 members which includes Sze min - the hardworking one ( I really have to give it to her, she really deserves it!), Leon - the lazy, irritable and surprisingly the driving force behind our work, Shen Han - the quirky but the one behind the innovative ideas that we previously thought crazy and impossible and of course, me. It was hard at first trying to make sense of all the nonsense the guys were up to but I've grown comfortable and trusting of them. Still, they just could not resist testing out my patience and help me practice my warning stare. Love em', hate em'. They are still my group mates till the end of the year...
And now, the most damning problem I'm facing now: It's not how my teacher thought of me, it's not my pathetic grades nor is it the stress I have. It's a freaking tall Indian guy who somehow just doesn’t get the simplest of the English vocabulary and body language! (I’m not kidding when I said he's freaking tall - he's 1.9 m plus in height!) Seriously, don't you hate it at times when you're trying so hard to not offend someone bothering you by expressing obvious body language and he don't get it?!
Firstly, I treat him like any other schoolmates in college; I do have my own comfort zone and breathing space. I mean, I'm not forcing anyone to stop crushing on me, but he does not have to follow me wherever I wanna go! Moreover, trying to join into my project work group discussion and offering to help is not helpful-it's being busybody. Why join a group discussion which you obviously do not know what the context of it nor possess anymore knowledge than us? In summary, it's creepy to know you're being followed by someone you do not fancy!
Secondly, I admit I'm no beauty nor do I pass off as someone who likes being in a large social circle. Why does he think following me around will automatically translate into me accepting him?!!!!!!!!! Arghh!
When I finally confronted him, he commented that there's nothing wrong in following a person around! What nerves! It is when you're threatening my breathing space! Also, I do not think there's even time to pursue relationships in a junior college. If he wants to get my friendly attention, he would have to work for it by respecting my privacy first!
Oh Please... I need my sanity too you know! I think I would have gone insane by his stalking if not for my friends who helped placed a distance between him and my freedom. Oh dear, I think I'm in serious need of an alibi to convince him to stop...
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
To JianWen: You seriously know how to cheer people up. Hahas! Thanks!
Yup, i had to agree... no point thinking of all the million things I hate right now. It's national day and that's one more extra day to clear my damning pile of overdue work!-All those time spent burning midnight oil is putting a strain on my eyes.
One good thing to celebrate: it's down to approximately 11 weeks till the end of the damning school year then i'll be free from those depressing grades! Woo Hoo!
Block test results aka midyear exams
H1 General Paper - E
H1 Mother Tongue - C
H1 Economics - U
H2 Physics - U
H2 Mathematics - S
H2 History - S
*Passing grade is E and grades range from A-E then S and U.
A level points: 17.5 / 100
From the remarks in my report, my physics and maths teacher probably thinks I'm lazy and my economics and history teacher thinks I'm slow... But who cares? I probably never do well anytime, anyway!
Gone are the days of being enthusiastic about anything at all.The time I spent being disappointed again and again had pushed and trapped my enthusiasm in a tiny isolated cell somewhere I could not even reach.
Strange enough, I could see my path clearer than anyone else's. That because unlike the other's path which is full of winding, ups and downs, mine is just a steep drop down the bottomless pit. Such an irony for someone who had people thinking I was 'hardworking' in the past.
I guess this is the harsh reality huh?
The world is never a friendly place at all...